[[This is just a little IC chat Scar had with Miss Tralala in her diner that I thought was enjoyable and interesting. I removed most of the ooc chat except one comment she made which I thought to be quite poetic. Enjoy]]
[15:10] Scarlett Warziders taps her finger on the table and stares out the window with an emotionless expression. "You ever get the feeling like today's the last day of your life? Often I feel like it's all just gonna end..."
[15:12] tralala Loordes: Ahh yes - that old friend - yes quite often. But I am a skillful pill popper - I can adjust my realities - smiles
[15:15] Scarlett Warziders smiles an empty smile. She decides not to mention the vial of cocaine she had in her pocket. "I guess that helps a bit. I have my own habits, but I'm afraid not everyone approves of my lifestyle or my 'art'. I know it'll catch up to me someday like it has in the past...but I fear it'll be even less pleasant"
[15:19] tralala Loordes: Hmm stares dreamily at the pie..I was most eloquently assured by a cyborg all my failings need never catch up with me if I am willing to accept technology..but for now I don't feel the need. Although certainly there is something dark coming for me someday.
[15:21] Scarlett Warziders nods. "Don't let anyone fool you. There are problems that go along with any life choice. I guess you just have to chose your own path. Weather that path is right or wrong, no-one can tell you. I guess you'll just find out when you hit that dead-end...as everyone does"
[15:25] Scarlett Warziders blushes and looks down at her hands "Heh, sharing my life story and I'm not even drunk yet. You just remind me of someone I met at the asylum." she runs her eyes along her tattoos that peek from under her sleeve.
[15:26] tralala Loordes: mm yes - sucking on end of hair - yes - am pretty sure this isn't my first time around. But who can tell? I believe very little of anything anyone tells me and prefer decision making with my back to the wall - such clarity at that moment.
[15:29] Scarlett Warziders looks back up and chuckles "You prefer the more animalistic way of making decisions then? When someone's backed into a corner they make the best decision they can, reverting back to a more animal style of thinking. It's a beautiful thing, when someone reaches that point. It forces you to ignore all the other bullshit life throws at you."
[15:33] tralala Loordes: yes - clears the fog right up! All the crap goes overboard. Eternally surprising what you find within at that moment- the resources you never guessed at. A primal event - must go back to our lizard brains when everything was a predatory threat. Anything at its essence is a beautiful thing.
[15:43] Scarlett Warziders could just nod and look back out the window with that same smile. She'd witnessed this phenomena occur manny times but had never experienced it herself. She envied those that could feel that way. She had a sort of illness...a mental imbalance they'd call it at the Asylum. And due in part to this illness, people would label her manny things. Manny ugly things. And when she thought of her own death, she'd not be afraid of the pain or the afterlife, but more of if she'd be remembered when she was gone. And how they would remember her.
[15:51] tralala Loordes: [[Legacy. Always an ephemeral idea. Any legacy will be edited through every generation - it will come and go with the passing of time. I live just at the edge of whim - how anyone interprets that after I am dust won't make any difference to me. However, I am thought to be heartless in my way - unable to bond. Funny I don't see that in myself - its a reflection I cant quite make out for myself in my mirror.]]
[15:59] Scarlett Warziders sighs as she stands. "Well, I'm off to take care of the usual. It's been nice getting to know you friend. I'll see you around" smiles as she exits
[15:59] tralala Loordes: Ta Ms W. see you soon I hope
[16:02] Scarlett Warziders: "I'm sure we'll meet again soon Ms. Tra. Goodnight"